last night i remember i was dreaming all night. and i remember that all night i was dreaming about Tom. and i remember that i woke up around 5 times, and i wished i could continue the dream and all those times i went back sleeping and (luckily or unluckily) could continue my dream. i don’t exactly know what did i do in my dream, i just know that for the whole time i was with Tom. and in the morning all i could wish for is Tom waking up next to me. he had been all over my mind ever since we met, especially since i moved back to budapest, and what’s on top is that lately i’ve been planning my trip to london with a friend, to finally go to englad and to see Tom again. but i didn’t think of him as a love interest, i just knew it would be good to see him, even though i have no idea how to react to that.

wait, now i remember, that in my dream when we met again i didn’t know whether to kiss him or just hug, and it was awkward a little bit. but then at some point in my dream we did kiss, but it felt like nothing.

but today when i woke up i just had to check him out on fb, and i kind of found him attractive. i don’t know where all of this comes from, i seriously have no idea. but it may be all because i’ve been kind of in a desperate need lately, not for sex, more for a relationship. a living together, sharing life, and waking up next to each other kind of relationship. the one about support. and this is all because i could get use of a little bit of support from someone close.  because i can’t exactly get that from friends, because i can only see them on special occasions, which is all due to me working, studying and trying to survive in Life, and they are very busy too. its damn hard out there in the real world, never did i imagine it to be this hard. i hope my trip to london will eventually happen, and that by the time it does, i will know how to act with Tom.

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